Put down your addiction,and pick up the love.

Two unsuccessful college essays later I have acomplished nothing. How hard could it be to write an essay about myself? I mean it should be the easiest thing in the world, seeing as I'm around myself everysingle second of everysingle day. But alas it's not at all. It's really hard, I never know what to include and what not to inclue. Everything seems so normal to me, so it's hard to decide what other people will find intersting. baahhhhh! The one thing this process has made me realize is how much the people around me affect me. How much the people in my life have shaped me and made me the person I am today. I'm not sure if that's good or bad, but for right now I'm going to go with that's a good thing. I wonder if I've had an influence on anyone? I mean I"m around people all the time, so I wonder if any of them are different because of me, because I know I'm different because of them. I think it's safe to say that no one person that I've met hasn't had at least a little tiny affect on me, even if only for a moment, they have changed me in some way. I think it's interesting the different sides of people that come out in different sittuations. this weekend I saw some different sides of people, some good, and some not so good, but all interesting. Some were very positive, and made me think of the person in a very different light, others not so positive, and yet, I still see them in the same good light I saw them before. Does this mean I'm not really as cynical as I claim to be? Does this mean that I really do try to see the good in people? probablly not.
Well I think I will leave you with a little reminder from Nada Surf: "always love, hate will get you everytime"